::sometimes::

i've been disrespected by you.  mocked. sworn. pushed. how you like to push. push buttons. push boundaries. push me. away. over the edge. over you. you succeeding. because sometimes i feel myself receding. away. over the edge. over you. fading. and soon....i'm even afraid to face it. the soon that i feel is soon. i've tried. really. what can bring it back? i don't know anymore. do i even want it back...?